Rather cheeky of me to start this post with a line from one of my favourite poems by W.B. Yeats but it fits, and is what has been in my head all evening. Anyone who knows me in my decades of being online would know that every now and then I go “off grid”. I’ve not been able to really do so since Watermyth was published because I was always pushing the novel. Well, it’s over two years now since Watermyth‘s been published. My academic workload is heavy, I’m practising for music exams, and I’m working on not just novels but a short story collection and various short stories to be published. Add to this my age, my various health issues and the very real scarcity of time as well as energy. So I finally did something that I’ve been wanting to do for a couple of months now.
I’m really burned out on promoting myself and my works. I’m burned out on “putting myself out there”. I want to live life in the minutiae, to go “out to the hazel wood” and to reconnect with all bits of myself that I’ve lost but seem to be making their way back to me as healing takes root. This reintegration is crucial work for the sake of my artistic craft and my general well-being. It requires depth work. It requires going within. So that’s why I finally deactivated those two accounts.
This post exists so that people won’t worry and to reassure people I haven’t gone off in any kind of “huff” or to be a drama llama. Things are fine! But I do have a lot of work to do both externally and internally. And I’ve really been wanting to do this for ages. I’ll be back again on both platforms when the time is right, probably later this year when I’m ready to publish my books. But for now, I’ll periodically post things on my blogs (I have various posts on writing etc that I’d like to finish up), and do the work I’m supposed to be doing this year. In the meanwhile, stay safe and trust that I am doing my best to stay safe, as healthy as can be managed, and productive.
Till the next blog post!
xx
Anita